My current strategy

So, like Megan said, I am trying to make ignoring me hard for ET. I just left another phone message. This is partly my problem, but I HATE being put in the position of nag/supplicant/kill-joy. I'll do a lot to avoid it. It is horrible, though, how the concept of standing up for myself and my needs has somehow morphed into being really really uncool. I feel like the geek who whines, "but you're supposed to follow the rules." Like be decent to the people you work with.

Then after I start feeling dorky and horrible about myself, I get angry and self-righteous. Neither of which are very nice feelings either. And not the sort of empowering kind of anger. The sort that makes me say things I shouldn't say that end up making me look bad and not ET or whoever.

And then I just want to curl up into a ball.