Enjoy this moment

I'm in Chicago at the AEA meetings, and I had my first two interviews today. They went extremely well, and I am starting to believe that there may indeed be a payoff for all of the hard work I have been doing.

I mean, my interview with the top Bay area school with the $100K post-doc was not only good, it was fun! I am still wary of saying that I think I will make it to the next round, since I am sure the others they are interviewing are all strong candidates in their own right, but I could sort of see why I might make to the next round.

I am also so proud to say that I spent zero time in the interviews thinking about what my interviewers were thinking! That never happens.

Oh, and I'm feeling the much same way with NM... No idea where we are heading, but I am not spending much time thinking about what he thinks, and I am enjoying where we are now, because I love emailing random shit to him and knowing that someone out there cares for me in some undefined but real way.

My demons are still out there I am sure, but right now they are sulking in their caves, licking their wounds and pouting about the unfairness of it all.