Friday (a week later)

Greetings from London. My internet set up here has turned out to be terrible and I have finally given up and am paying 5 pounds (i.e. $10) for an hour of internet access at a Starbucks (which are almost as ubiquitous here as they are in L.A.).

Thought I would update y'all on developments. I saw TF a couple of times, and the magic was gone. He is good in bed but not all present emotionally. And for god's sake, I had forgotten how QUIET he is in person. So little verbal communication. (His emails are very expressive, so it was easy to forget.) But not even the little clues like "mmm, yes"--just total silence. There are, of course, physical indications of feelings, but it gives a girl so little to go on. I'm not secure enough to be comfortable with that. So, I told him I'd had enough... Sad, but at least it makes everything much easier to cope with. Job prospects and possible love life are no longer entangled. Mission accomplished, in some respects, I guess.

Job stuff is sort of coalescing here too. I have a line on some supplementary consulting possibilities, and will be meeting with someone next week to see what we can see.

I think I like London, though I am still totally befuddled by how much things cost. I have no intuition whatsoever for the pound. It makes it very difficult to understand what my salary would actually buy me as far as lifestyle is concerned...

So very often I feel like a cartoon character who has just realized she ran off the cliff a little while ago...